Do I want to be famous? Researching the motives of a creative person.

Do you ask yourself this question?

I ask myself this question a lot and I suspect others like me do too. Do I want fame? Is my crazy, super speedy mind that is always coming up with new ideas, new products, new plays, new dances and so much more looking for validation from people? 

The long answer? Too long and complicated and I'm sure I'm just scratching the surface.  I am looking for the short answer and literally googled "why do you want to be famous?"  

Here's an interesting fact/excerpt that I came across that I've copied and pasted from the article I'm referring to. I will post the article below for you to view in it's entirety.

In 2012, a study found that a desire for fame solely for the sake of being famous was the most popular future goal among a group of 10-12 year olds, overshadowing hopes for financial success, achievement, and a sense of community. Which raises the question: Why do people want to be famous?

If you go on to read more you'll find this....I think this more closely relates to someone like me. Who is someone like me? Well, someone that is paid for services that either make people laugh in an audience, clap after a song, sweat from an awesome dance class or get a good review from a voice student or a corporate vendor. Of course I'm looking for validation. I don't think there is anything wrong with that. But I suppose there is more to it than that isn't it? 

Perhaps the question is: why do I literally kill myself (okay, make myself sick) and go overboard trying to create new, creative solutions to give to others? Why is it important? Why do I want to help people? Do I want something back in return?

Of course I do. Mainly a six figure income.

Okay, not true. 

If I wanted a six figure income, I could easily do it: I would just focus on one of my different careers and plug along. I have one business in particular that if I focused for just a few months I would make a killing. But I'm not interested and instead this little side business remains a side business because a) I do enjoy the income it brings me and it's a little bump of surprise when a check comes in that I wasn't really expecting. b) It's not that exciting.

But boring brings in income doesn't it? I'm not interested in boring. 

Let me make a side note here: I am blessed to not be interested in boring. I recognize that many people are not in the same situation as me. Let me also state that I have had every job under the sun and feel I have really done the hard work: waitress, customer care for an internet start up, front desk and assistant help at a furniture store, recruiter for Interim, Blockbuster employee, made coffee, the list goes on and on and on.....I have paid my dues. I also would totally go back to ANY of those jobs if I needed to. I don't have much sympathy for someone who loses their job and is not willing to go work at Starbucks or Peet's coffee to make ends meet. In fact, I think I'm interested in knowing the person who does that. He/she is one cool dude/ette.

The quest for finding something that fits all areas of my desire is the holy grail. I guess that needs to fall into four quadrants that interest me:

CREATIVE/RISK/MONEY/AUTHENTIC

In other words, in order for someone like me to be motivated to spend time it usually needs to be CREATIVE (or adding creative value to peoples lives), RISK, it needs to be something I feel a little uncomfortable doing (one of the reasons I don't perform as much is because it seems like second nature to me and almost zero risk...what does have a risk that's in this world? Writing a musical in which others perform and some critique), MONEY- I need to get paid to do it, it doesn't have to be an insane amount but I'm not willing to work for free- it's undervalued if it's free, it needs to be authentic and something I feel proud of. Even if it's $5.

Lastly, AUTHENTIC: I can't spend a huge amount of time on a money maker. If I don't feel it adds real value to the world and I know I'm just going through the motions in order to make a buck- it usually fails. Or falls to the wayside.

I'm getting off the subject though: "Do I want to be famous?"

No. Not really. If I wanted to be famous (or semi famous in my theater arena) I just would have made my career in NYC....but I made a very decisive decision to make my career on the West coast. I wanted to be near my family, the sun, and make sure I had a normal life for my kids and be with the love of my life, also my high school sweetheart. (Don't worry, a couple years into our marriage I freaked out, we moved all the way there and then literally moved all the way back when I turned to him and said "I've made a terrible mistake".)

About once every two-three months I regret it and wonder if that was the right decision. Then, I move on. (Can you tell I have a VERY reasonable husband?)

I came across this super interesting nugget of information that I can relate to and I think fits more of the description of what motivates me.

First I saw this:

"Those scoring high in narcissism and a high need for belonging share a common need to be seen and valued on a large scale."

I'm not a narcissist. I know narcissist's....that's not me. But, THIS may be me:

"It seems it's important to distinguish between the need to belong-- to feel positively and consistently connected to others-- and the need to relate.  Research shows that people with a high need for relatedness are not anxious about social exclusion, have a greater sense of security with their immediate social network, and are more confident that they are valued by others. In turn, they tend to report a positive mood, vitality, and well-being."

Now, that seems more like me: I love to be connected with others. I love to have deep meaningful talks with friends, family and debate with people of opposite views. 

I'm still at odds with myself however. I think I always will be. 

Can I create a body of work that I believe in, that makes me money and the sole focus is giving to others? 

Is it really possible to serve the world (in my case by adding value to peoples lives by helping them learn to be more creative) and in turn make a living?

I don't know.  But I'm about to find out. 

Do you want to be famous?

Why? or Why not? Let me know.

Here is a link to that awesome article I read. Enjoy!